Everyone remembers Pete Davidson and Ariana Grande’s whirlwind engagement, but Cazzie David really remembers it.
Cazzie, the 26-year-old daughter of Larry David, opens up about her relationship with Davidson in a book of personal essays called No One Asked for This. As most of the internet is aware, Cazzie and the Saturday Night Live star split days before he got together with Grande. But in an interview with the Los Angeles Times, the actress says the narrative is more complicated than everyone thinks.
In the chapter about Davidson, Cazzie recalls how they were infatuated with each other during their two-and-a-half-year relationship. She says she struggled to convince the comedian that she really loved him. She notes how she was fearful of ending things because “previously, self-harm and suicide threats had come about from trivial circumstances.” (Davidson has been open about his mental health struggles, including thoughts of self-harm.) Cazzie ultimately initiated a break in spring 2018 but changed her mind days later. When she called Davidson to explain she made a mistake, he said he was “the happiest he had ever been.” Davidson ultimately dumped her two days later in a text message, and the next day, she learned he was dating Grande.
Cazzie writes about feeling devastated and details how her dad held her as she “shook uncontrollably in his arms” during a flight to her sister’s graduation. At the hotel, she cried on the bathroom floor and sucked on her weed pens, per the L.A. Times. She woke up “screaming in agony” before the Curb Your Enthusiasm star told her to stop her spiraling.
“CAZZIE, COME ON!” Larry said. “YOUR ANCESTORS SURVIVED THE HOLOCAUST!”
Davidson and Grande weren’t exactly shy in flaunting their romance, which made social media a negative place. She says she could only think of Davidson and Grande “immediately falling in love, accompanied by audio of her baby voice whispering sweet nothings in his ear, dubbed over his past declarations of love and trust to me.”
“It was a really pivotal moment in my life,” Cazzie, who struggles with anxiety, tells the L.A. Times. “And writing about it has caused me a ton of anxiety, especially because I talk so much about hating the attention it brought me. Why would I bring more attention to myself by writing about it? But there’s nothing that’s gonna be worse than what I already experienced with that.”
Davidson and Grande’s relationship fizzled out after five months and he and Cazzie are friends again. She even thanks her ex-boyfriend in the acknowledgments of her book. (“Pete. I love you ... Your bravery inspires me and your friendship means the world to me.”) Cazzie has shown him the essay.
According to Cazzie’s editor, the Davidson chapter is one of her best as it allows the writer to “take back some of the power” over a narrative she couldn’t control.
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