Meghan Markle Reveals She Felt Suicidal During Her Time as a Royal

Neha Prakash
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Photo credit: Handout - Getty Images
Photo credit: Handout - Getty Images

From Marie Claire

TRIGGER WARNING: The below story contains a description of suicidal ideation. This content may be triggering for some readers.

One of the most heartbreaking and raw moments of Oprah Winfrey's CBS interview with Meghan Markle was when the Duchess of Sussex detailed her struggles with mental health, namely that she faced suicidal thoughts and ideation during her time as a working royal.

The revelation came when Winfrey questioned Markle about the toll the media's often racist and merciless treatment of her, paired with the lack of support and protection from The Firm, took on her.

"I just didn't see a solution. I would sit up at night ... It was all happening just because I was breathing," Meghan said. "I was ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry, especially, because I know how much loss he's suffered. But I knew if I didn't say it, I'd do it. And I just didn't want to be alive anymore. And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought."

Markle added that she went "to the institution" to ask to go somewhere to seek treatment and find help and she was told she couldn't because it "wouldn't be good for the institution."

But the conversation ended on a positive note, with Markle saying she feels as though she is stronger and more hopeful about her future. "I'm still standing... My hope for people in the takeaway from this is to know that there's another side. And to know that life is worth living."

If you or someone you know is at risk, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or text HOME to 741741 to message with a trained crisis counselor from the Crisis Text Line for free.

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