Demi Moore on addiction: 'I had absolutely no value for myself'

Elizabeth Di Filippo
Demi Moore. Image via Getty Images.
Demi Moore. Image via Getty Images.

Demi Moore is opening up about her struggles with addiction and substance abuse.

The 55-year-old actress was recently named Woman of the Year by the Peggy Albrecht Friendly House at the recovery centre’s 29th Annual Awards Luncheon in Beverly Hills.

Moore accepted the award and gave a moving speech where she opened up about her personal struggles. The actress went to rehab at the peak of her “Brat Pack” fame in the mid-1980s for drugs and alcohol. In 2012 she was hospitalized for inhaling nitrous oxide, also known as whippits. The “Charlie’s Angels” star later checked herself into rehab for drug addiction and an eating disorder.

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I feel like there are defining moments in our lives that shape who we are and the direction we go, and early in my career, I was spiralling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough,” Moore told the audience.

“I had absolutely no value for myself,” the star continued. “And this self-destructive path, it very quickly … brought me to a real crisis point. And it wasn’t clear at the time the reason — maybe it was divine intervention — but two people who I barely knew stepped up and took a stand for me, and they presented me with an opportunity.”

Moore with her daughters Rumer, Scout and Tallulah Willis. Image via Instagram/@moore2d.
Moore with her daughters Rumer, Scout and Tallulah Willis. Image via Instagram/@moore2d.

The actress continued, “In fact, it was more like an ultimatum … unless I was dead, that I better show up. They gave me a chance to redirect the course of my life before I destroyed everything. Clearly, they saw more of me than I saw of myself. And I’m so grateful because without that opportunity, without their belief in me, I wouldn’t be standing here today.”

Moore said she is “grateful” for the support of her three children, 30-year-old Rumer, 27-year-old Scout and 24-year-old Tallulah, whom she shares with her ex-husband Bruce Willis.

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“I know in a moment of great struggle for me, I reached out to a wise teacher and expressed my fear that I wasn’t good enough,” Moore said. “And she said, ‘You will never be good enough but you can know the value of your worth. Put down the measuring stick.’ So today, I put down the measuring stick and I thank you for this beautiful acknowledgment and the opportunity to know the value of my worth.”

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So grateful for the love and support of friends and family even my furry family! Ru @rumerwillis Scouter @scoutlaruewillis and my Boo @buuski seeing your beautiful smiling faces-you are what makes my heart worth beating. Everything I do is for you! Thank you my dear friend Amanda @amandadecadenet for presenting me with this beautiful honor and bringing your strength beauty depth intelligence and deep loving. Having you there was like being wrapped in a warm blanket of love and safety. It was an honor to be recognized by @FriendlyHouseLA alongside @angelamanueldavis @wzyofweho #BarbaraBachStarkey and #MarjorieBackWalsh With the gorgeous @ambervalletta as our host Amber you are a pillar of calm grace and ease that reminded me to breathe thank you! my anchors for always being there @ericbuterbaugh @jwuntitled Girls love @moonfrye @spagettyos_ @lennz13 @danielavillegasjewelry @atlantabean @trinavenit #sathari #danaharris #michellealves Thank you to all my friends who supported me and @friendlyhousela but who could not be there yesterday. Your support is what allows Friendly House to do the amazing work they do helping women find recovery and reclaim their lives with dignity!! This Instagram business is still new for me and yesterday’s unspeakable act in Pittsburgh left me gutted and frozen, completely unable to even think about sharing my gratitude for such a beautiful event. I will figure this out but please excuse me in advanced for any IG faux pax of insensitivity it certainly is not intended. My heart goes out to the families. I believe in the power of LOVE! These are the moments we need to inject greater loving compassion acceptance and understanding. #LoveWins

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Moore took to Instagram to thank her family and friends for their support as she accepted the award. Of her daughters she writes, “Seeing your beautiful smiling faces- you are what makes my heart worth beating. Everything I do is for you!”

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