Lindsie Chrisley Admits 'Co-Parenting Can Be So Hard' as She Plans for 'Bittersweet' Christmas without Son Jackson: 'It's Lonely'

Lindsie Chrisley is opening up about some of the difficulties of co-parenting around the holidays.

On the Monday, Dec. 16 episode of her podcast Coffee Convos, which she co-hosts with Kailyn Lowry, Chrisley, 35, shared that her 11-year-old son Jackson will be spending Christmas with her ex-husband, Will Campbell. Without her child at home, the proud mom admits she's already looking forward to the holidays being over.

"I don't have a tree up, not putting one up," Chrisley begins, adding, "I don't have Jackson for Christmas, so It's just something that I'm not doing."

She continues, "It's so bittersweet because it's like you don't have to worry about doing all this stuff, but also it's sad. And, like, no matter how many years it's like that, it's still sad. It's lonely."

"And then you just hope that it's over soon," Chrisley admits. "That's how I feel."

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Last year, Chrisley got to host Jackson for Christmas but decided to still split the time with Campbell and his parents. However, Chrisley says plans will look a bit different this year.

"Last year for Christmas, Jackson spent it with me in the morning, and then Will picked him up and took him to his parents' house," she explains. "This year, it's Will's full Christmas day, and he's not gonna offer the same thing to me that I offered him last year. Why? I don't know."

While she isn't happy about this year's holiday plan, Chrisley says, "I've had to learn through therapy that I have to respect the choices that he makes on the time that he is allotted. And just because I choose to do something for the betterment of my child doesn't mean he has to choose that same thing."

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She adds, "I'm not putting up a tree because I'm gonna have to sit and look at it by myself. I'm not putting up stockings because I've gotta do it by myself."

"Co-parenting can just be so hard even if you are on the same page in co-parenting," says Chrisley. "But you want to be fulfilled in your personal life with your child outside of that other person — it just makes the situation very hard."

"I do feel like I have been so giving and accommodating in that situation," she continues, "and maybe I was doing that in the newness of the situation, because I didn't know any different and couldn't imagine, like, not being amendable."

Now, Chrisley says she's "at a place where I know that I'm going to have a future partner and that future partner is probably going to have children. And I just have to stick to my guns, as hard as it hurts to do that, and know that me sticking to my guns might mean that my child misses something on the other end."

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