'Becoming fat saved my life,' blogger says

<em>Photo via Instagram/Danica Marjanovic</em>
Photo via Instagram/Danica Marjanovic

After years of struggling with body dysmorphia, Danica Marjanovic went from a size 10 to a 16.

While body dysmorphia, formally called body dysmorphic disorder (BDD), doesn’t always present itself in those living with eating disorders, it is still common. According to Eating Disorder Hope, “behaviors that can be seen as red flags for body dysmorphia, and potentially BDD, include body-checking, negative body talk and an obsession with real or perceived physical flaws.”

For Marjanovic these red flags were very real daily occurrences. As she treated her BDD, she went from a size 10 to a 16 – and finally, for the first time in a long time, started to feel healthy again. Unfortunately, her happiness didn’t matter to part of her online audience. She regularly received negative comments that urged her to work out or eat less.

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A post shared by DANICA MARJANOVIĆ (@lovefromdanica) on Dec 3, 2017 at 2:25pm PST

Tired of people shaming her for gaining weight, Marjanovic decided to speak out against those critiquing her lifestyle, saying that “becoming fat” saved her life.

“I can’t tell you how many fake health concerns/bullying/ body shaming comments I get that start with ‘I am all for self love but you should be working out to love your body.’ Would you tell an underweight anorexic patient in the early stages of recovery to start exercising to prove she loves herself? No. Just because my body does not conform to society’s standards of an eating disorder recovery body does not mean I am not overcoming a serious issue with restricting my food,” she wrote.

same mirror same bedroom just 7 years on and a whole lot of shit and experiences learnt from. I can’t tell you how many fake health concerns/bullying/ body shaming comments I get that start with “I am all for self love BUT.. you should be working out to love your body’ would you tell an underweight anorexic patient in the early stages of recovery to start exercising to prove she loves her self NO. just because my body does not conform to society’s standards of an eating disorder recovery body does not mean I am not over coming a serious issue with restricting my food. no one has the right to then use their ill informed ignorant judgment to tell me how I should or shouldn’t be showing love to my body you have NO not even a SLIGHT idea how far I’ve come with my relationship with food and exercise. From months of therapy I’ve been told I essentially recovered my self out or signs of what sounded like undiagnosed anorexia; want to know why I was never diagnosed? Because I always felt not skinny enough to go get help about my issues with food and body image. So save your ‘I know what self love is better than you’ judgments to yourself and have some basic knowledge and respect into the statistics of eating disorders. If anything I’m trying to make a point of the treatment of bodies that are not skinny even in the treatment of eating disorders – this has to change. My page isn’t just showing you how to be confident it’s about showing you how I have faced my biggest fear in life and turned it into something beautiful.

A post shared by DANICA MARJANOVIĆ (@lovefromdanica) on Nov 9, 2017 at 4:37am PST

Marjanovic’s followers were quick to support her and thank her for her honesty. Some followers even went as far as admitting gaining weight had also helped them take back their life.

“Thank you for this post! I am still in shock when I think of how I was only socially desirable when I was thin. Little did anyone know I was losing my mind, my hair, and important minerals and nutrients. After tons of intensive therapy I have my health and sanity back, but I also gained weight. I feel like I should be ashamed of my chubby body, but I can’t say that I am…the freedom of not being in the grip of an eating disorder is glorious!” wrote one follower.

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“I just last year started working through my eating disorder and trying to get a better handle on my mental health. And you know what happened? I gained weight, because I decided to stop actively trying to starve and kill myself. People want me to be ashamed of my weight gain and sure maybe I don’t have the ideal plus body or recovering body, but damn I feel better and stronger. I will be proud,” added another.

Marjanovic is no stranger to making bold statements online, one of the reasons her 38,000+ followers continue to keep up with the U.K. blogger and “fat activist.”

In my happy place

A post shared by DANICA MARJANOVIĆ (@lovefromdanica) on Dec 3, 2017 at 8:54am PST

“No one has the right to then use their ill-informed, ignorant judgment to tell me how I should or shouldn’t be showing love to my body. You have not even a slight idea how far I’ve come with my relationship with food and exercise,” she wrote.

While not all comments were positive, Marjanovic ended her message on a solid note, reminding her followers that it’s never too late to confront your fears.

“My page isn’t just showing you how to be confident it’s about showing you how I have faced my biggest fear in life and turned it into something beautiful.”

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